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... when you walk out the door, see the other side of the street empty for street sweeping and your heart sinks because you think you parked not-your-car there and now it's gone, but you have to get to something else so you don't have time to stop and think about it. And then on the way to that something else you lose your keys, so you go walking back and forth between home and Davis scanning for your keys (and not pausing to look for the car because of course it's been towed...) and HAPPILY you manage to find your keys, which someone picked up and brought in to their office, which wasn't the office you were going to, but then you have to go to work - half an hour later than planned - and then you have to tell the owners of the car what's up, because you need the license plate number to check on its status, and of course that conversation is no fun "Your car? Either towed or stolen. What's your lic. plate number?"
And you get the number, and you call the local tow-mafia and... they don't have the car. "You should call the cops and ask them." and you do, and they don't, either.
So you start tagging people around you to try to look on nearby side streets, because maybe you're just too tired and stupid to ACTUALLY remember where you parked?, and one of those very kind people manages to find the car, around the corner from where you thought you'd left it and it's safe and sound and suddenly ALL the stress can leave your body, and you collapse?

Yeah, me neither...
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From mom's house. Portrait by Bev Zuk

Dreams

Feb. 10th, 2016 05:40 pm
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I almost never remember having dreams, let alone what they are, so this one was multiply odd - odder still that I remember it 9 hours later.

Basically, it was an extended period of hanging out in a (very dark?) house, trying to convince the very nice but very persistent vampire couple who lived there - but who I never actually saw, just felt in the dark - that no, they really didn't want to bite/feed on/turn me. Were I to relax and stop insisting/preventing, they would've gone ahead with it and I didn't want that.

They might've had a cat, too.

I FEEL like I was half awake for most of this, but that it took forever for me to get to the point of "I am REALLY not enjoying this, and if I wake All The Way up (say, by getting up and going the bathroom) I can probably not pick this up again when I go back to sleep", and in fact that worked.

It wasn't a nightmare, as much as an extended stress-ball of a thing. It certainly Means Something.

{sigh}

Loneliness

Jan. 24th, 2016 09:01 pm
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Much of the time these days, I feel almost desperately lonely minutes after the last person in my physical vicinity leaves.

An even more disturbing thing, I think, is that I often feel pretty darned lonely when I'm surrounded by people. Not always, not all people, but...

I need to fix this. I have no idea how.
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> I’m late because I have a weird aversion to changing circumstances.
>
> Not sure what the deal is with this, but something in me is strangely appalled by the idea of
> transitioning from what I’m currently doing to doing something else. When I’m at home working, I
> hate when there’s something on my schedule that I have to stop everything for to go outside and
> do. It’s not that I hate the activity—once I’m there I’m often pleased to be there—it’s an
> irrational resistance to the transition. The positive side of this is it usually means I’m highly
> present when I finally do haul my ass somewhere, and I’m often among the last to leave.

Wow. This happens to me WAY more often than I want to think about, including to the level of "Nah, I just won't go."

(From: http://waitbutwhy.com/2015/07/why-im-always-late.html which describes other of my time-based failings, too, but with much less of a "This!" reaction.)
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I'll be flying to Seattle on Friday, Jan 23, and out (to Wenatchee (iata:EAT) (and then on to Quincy)) on Sunday, around 4pm. I'm staying at the Ace Hotel and haven't yet decided to rent a car.

On Wednesday, I'll be flying EAT->SEA->SFO and driving down to Sunnyvale, where I'll be staying Wed and Thu. night.

I'll have a car, and be at loose ends, from Friday after work until Sunday, 6:30pm, when I fly SFO->SEA->BOS.

The only square dancing I've found during those times is:
Interlocked Squares, Cupertino, on Thursday (I'm not sure I'll be able to make it, there might be work obligations, or not...)
... and I THOUGHT there was something on Friday, but I can't find it now.

I have no idea where I'm staying for that weekend.

Who wants to do things? What things should I be doing?

Books, 2014

Jan. 1st, 2015 03:44 am
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Remember when I said "(I received a Kindle for the holidays, as I bought the $10 Song Of Ice And Fire special that Amazon had a month or 2 ago. That might either really speed me up or slow me down… Ok, it'll certainly lower my velocity in terms of completed books for a while... but compared to last year? Will I even notice?)"
Yeah. That, and many other things, dropped my total through the floor.

Also, my record keeping got worse. I don't believe this is complete, but I don't know what's missing... mostly comics, most likely.

Martin, George R.R. George R. R. Martin's A Game of Thrones 5-Book Boxed Set. Bantam, 2012.
Wrong, Less. Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality.
Herriot, James. All Creatures Great And Small.
Herriot, James. All Things Bright And Beautiful.
Vaughn, Brian K. Saga, Volume 4. Image Comics, 2014.
Layman, John. Chew Volume 7: Bad Apples. Image Comics, 2013.
Layman, John. Chew Volume 8: Family Recipes. Image Comics, 2014.
Carey, Mike. The Unwritten Vol. 5: On to Genesis. Vertigo, 2012.
Carey, Mike. The Unwritten Vol. 6: Tommy Taylor and the War of Words. Vertigo, 2012.
Carey, Mike. The Unwritten Vol. 7: The Wound. Vertigo, 2013.
Carey, Mike. The Unwritten Vol. 8: Orpheus in the Underworld. Vertigo, 2014.
Azzarello, Brian, and Cliff Chiang. Doctor 13: Architecture and Mortality. DC Comics, 2007.
Foglio, Phil, and Kaja Foglio. Girl Genius Volume 13: Agatha Heterodyne and the Sleeping City. Studio Foglio, 2014.
Sakai, Stan. Red Scorpion. Dark Horse Books, 2014.
Wegener, Scott. Atomic Robo Volume 7: Flying She-Devils of the Pacific. Red 5 Comics, 2013.
Clevinger, Brian. Atomic Robo: Real Science Adventures Volume 1. Red 5 Comics, 2012.
Willingham, Bill. Fables Vol. 20: Camelot. Vertigo, 2014.
Carey, Mike. The Unwritten Vol. 9: The Unwritten Fables. Vertigo, 2014.
Carey, Mike. The Unwritten Vol. 10: War Stories. Vertigo, 2014.
Fforde, Jasper. The Eye of Zoltar. New York: Houghton Mifflin Harcourt, 2014.
Tayler, Howard. Schlock Mercenary: The Body Politic. Hypernode Press, 2013.
Maupin, Armisted. The Days Of Anna Madrigal. Harper, 2014.

Beds 2014

Jan. 1st, 2015 03:35 am
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The list this year is shorter than last year by a couple, but almost the same.

Somerville, MA
Boston, MA
New Lebanon, NY
Troy, NH
Fairlee, VT
Foxboro, MA
Lake Buena Vista, FL
Danbury, CT

I'm kind of dissatisfied with the rut, but the 1st 6 are going to happen again this year, the 7th won't (probably), the 8th might vary back to Brewster NY, or someplace nearby, but be effectively the same. The work trip in late Jan will add at least 3 and probably 4 cities...

I don't feel like I have significant wanderlust, except that it seems I do... {sigh}
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Last year was 63, plus uncounted graphic novels.
This year seems to be 47, INCLUDING all the graphic novels. I don't know what changed. My T commute is still the same 40-60m a day it was. Weird. So, since I've been tracking this now, you can have all of it.

(I received a Kindle for the holidays, as I bought the $10 Song Of Ice And Fire special that Amazon had a month or 2 ago. That might either really speed me up or slow me down… Ok, it'll certainly lower my velocity in terms of completed books for a while... but compared to last year? Will I even notice?)

Sorted by date of completion in Bookpedia ("Copy as bibliography"), other than one or 2 I borrowed, and an ebook I got via Starbucks' free stuff cards

Turner, Amber McCree. Sway, (Starbucks)/Disney•Hyperion Books, 2012.

Sturrock, Donald. Storyteller: The Authorized Biography of Roald Dahl. Simon & Schuster, 2010.

Rowling, J. K. The Casual Vacancy. Little, Brown and Company, 2012.

Fforde, Jasper. The Last Dragonslayer. Boston: Harcourt, 2012.

Howarth, Matt. My Name Is Lesion: A Collection of Unhealthy Tales. Merry Blacksmith Press, 2012.

Howarth, Matt. Western Promises: and Other Tales of Interstellar Cynicism. Merry Blacksmith Press, 2013.

Clevinger, Brian. Atomic Robo Volume 1: Atomic Robo & the Fightin' Scientists of Tesladyne. Ed. Paul Ens,. Red 5 Comics, 2009.

Hearne, Kevin. Trapped (the Iron Druid Chronicles, Book Five). Del Rey, 2012.

Steele, Allen. Hex. Ace, 2012.

Standage, Tom. The Victorian Internet: The Remarkable Story of the Telegraph and the Nineteenth Century's On-line Pioneers. Walker & Company, 2007.

Foglio, Phil And Kaja, and Phil Foglio. Girl Genius Volume 11: Agatha Heterodyne and the Hammerless Bell. Studio Foglio, 2012.

Tayler, Howard. Schlock Mercenary: The Sharp End of the Stick. Ed. Sandra Tayler,. Hypernode Press, 2012.

Foster, Alan Dean, George Alec Effinger, Frederik Pohl, Fritz Leiber, Mildred Downey Broxon, Pamela Sargent, Alan Brennert, John Brunner, and Ursula K. Le Guin. Fellowship of the Stars: Nine Science Fiction Stories. Ed. Terry Carr,. Simon & Schuster, 1974.

Armstrong, Kelley. Haunted. Spectra, 2005.

Banks, Iain, Consider Phlebas

Holt, Tom. Faust Among Equals. Orbit / Little Brown & Co, 1995.

Armstrong, Kelley. Bitten. Plume,

Armstrong, Kelley. Stolen. Plume, 2004.

Clevenger, Brian. Atomic Robo Volume 2: Atomic Robo and the Dogs of War TP. Red 5 Comics, 2009.

Armstrong, Kelley. Dime Store Magic. Spectra, 2004.

Sakai, Stan. Traitors of the Earth. Dark Horse, 2012.

Armstrong, Kelley. Industrial Magic. Spectra, 2004.

Ruff, Matt. Sewer, Gas and Electric: The Public Works Trilogy. Aspect, 1998.

Clevinger, Brian. Atomic Robo Volume 3: Atomic Robo and the Shadow from Beyond Time TP. Red 5 Comics, 2010.

Clevinger, Brian. Atomic Robo Volume 4: Other Strangeness. Red 5 Comics, 2010.

Layman, John. Chew Volume 7: Bad Apples TP. Image Comics, 2013.

Willingham, Bill. Fables: Werewolves of the Heartland. Vertigo, 2012.

Ruff, Matt. The Mirage: A Novel. Harper Perennial, 2013.

Hughes, Matthew. The Damned Busters: To Hell and Back, Book 1. Angry Robot, 2011.

Clevenger, Brian. Atomic Robo Volume 5: Deadly Art of Science TP. Ed. Lee Black,. Red 5 Comics, 2011.

Clevinger, Brian. Atomic Robo Volume 6: Ghost of Station X TP. Red 5 Comics, 2012.

Jillette, Penn. God, No!: Signs You May Already Be an Atheist and Other Magical Tales. Simon & Schuster, 2011.

Holt, Tom. Overtime. Orbit, 1993.

Fforde, Jasper. The Song of the Quarkbeast. HMH Books for Young Readers, 2013.

Vernon, Ursula. Digger: The Complete Omnibus Edition. Sofawolf Press, Inc., 2013.

Williams, Walter Jon. Frankensteins and Foreign Devils. Ed. Timothy Szczesuil,. NESFA Press, 1998.

Simone, Gail. Leaving Megalopolis. Painfully Normal Productions, 2013.

Baldwin, Christopher. Spacetrawler Book 1: The Human Seat. PNW: Good Port, 2011.

Kupperberg, Paul. Archie: The Married Life Book 2. Archie Comics, 2012.

Kupperberg, Paul. Archie: The Married Life Book 3. Archie Comics, 2013.

Holt, Tom. Djinn Rummy. Orbit, 1995.

Kupperberg, Paul. Archie: The Married Life Book 4. Archie Comics, 2013.

Baldwin, Christopher. Spacetrawler Book 2: Brograhm's Teeth.

Foglio, Kaja, and Phil Foglio. Agatha H. and the Clockwork Princess. Night Shade Books, 2012.

Baldwin, Christopher. Spacetrawler Book 3: Fallen To Madness. New England: Good Port, 2013.

Foglio, Phil, and Kaja Foglio. Girl Genius Volume 12: Agatha Heterodyne and the Siege of Mechanicsburg. Studio Foglio, 2013.

Willingham, Bill. Fables Vol. 19: Snow White. Vertigo, 2013.

Beds, 2013

Jan. 1st, 2014 03:31 am
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Where I slept last year.

Somerville, MA
Boston, MA
New Lebanon, NY
Troy, NH
Fairlee, VT
Foxboro, MA
Quebec, QC
San Francisco, CA
New Brunswick, NJ
Falls Church, VA
Timonium, MD
Brewster, NY

Wow. This is a short list. It goes much farther afield than last year, but not that often. I mean sure, that's 11 trips out of town, 3 of which were more than a weekend, which really shouldn't be much to sneeze at, but it seems like not nearly enough. There should be more travel.

This is subject to updating as I am corrected and reminded about things.

I'm ok...

Apr. 15th, 2013 04:13 pm
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Nowhere near Copley and safe and sound.
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I woke up this morning to food leaving me aggressively in multiple directions and have spent the day since then at most semi conscious. When I finally took my temperature 8+ hours later, I have a low, but real, fever.

Many thanks to [livejournal.com profile] ahf for bringing me ginger ale and bananas and graham crackers and bread... Sadly, though probably happily for them, as I'm typically a crappy patient, [livejournal.com profile] kimberlogic and [livejournal.com profile] xlii aren't home yet.

If I saw you recently, I sincerely hope I didn't pass the incubating form of this along.

Here's hoping I wake up tomorrow and it's all gone.
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... and - perhaps for the 1st time ever - I don't think I'm going to manage to catch up with LJ.

If you said anything interesting, or if you said anything at all about Baitcon, let me know?

I'll screen. Tell me if you mind if I unscreen.
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[Poll #1546705]

The last entry was Artist: Track - Album and that felt weird.

This is Ar: Al - Tr - though it's too long to fit, so I've taken out all the extra spaces and still can't fit it all.
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[Poll #1546705]

The last entry was Artist: Track - Album and that felt weird.

This is Ar: Al - Tr - though it's too long to fit, so I've taken out all the extra spaces and still can't fit it all.
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I'm on call, so I can't go to the movies, or to see Angelique Kidjo at the Somerville (as would be fabulous, really), but I don't have to be a hermit - though I should stay near wireless (or even hard-wired ether...).

Anything happening?
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I'm on call, so I can't go to the movies, or to see Angelique Kidjo at the Somerville (as would be fabulous, really), but I don't have to be a hermit - though I should stay near wireless (or even hard-wired ether...).

Anything happening?
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So, I need to be more organized. This has ALWAYS been the case, as far back as I can remember.

All these years later, I've finally been able to start putting in to words the problem with all the methods I've tried to try to help. (Other than: They don't help.)

They're all too hard to keep, well, organized, and there's NOTHING that works for me as a true universal capture device.

I have a 1st Gen iPhone, and a Nokia E71.
On each, it takes too long to get the phone out, unlock it, find and launch the note-taking app, and actually enter the note.
If I'm _driving_, when half of the things I've forgotten to do come to me, it's impossible.

If I have a voice recorder of some form, I never remember to transcribe it... I've discovered the notes months or years later, having forgotten about them by the time I finally get to a point where I could transcribe them.

My chosen platform is a mac, my work desktop is windows, my work is done on Linux. I drive my web-browsers hard enough that it can be slow to pull up (website of the day) to get something entered... and I'm not always carrying a machine with me. Go back to the problem with my phones.

If I write it down longhand - which I actually prefer for quick note taking, as trying I've let to find something that smoothly (and on all platforms) lets me put a blob of text here, another one there, and a 3rd alongside the 1st 2, easily.

I did a major diagramming project at my last job in dot (graphviz) because I knew if I got involved in laying out where the arrows and boxes went, I'd NEVER get data in to them.

If I don't get a note taken down quickly, it won't get taken down, and as I read someplace today, "If it's not written down, it doesn't exist."

Of course, once too much of it is written down, there's too much to deal with.

And how the FUCK do you pick out your 'next actions', anyway? (Ref: David Allen, Getting Things Done)

Being organized is not simply 'hard', it's pretty fucking near 'impossible', and this is getting to me.

How do you do it?

(Classic example: I was trying for a while to do a daily wrap-up and pre-org the next day's tasks... but it nearly always happened that I was busy at the wrap-up time, or suddenly it would be time to leave - with a deadline at the other end - and I'd have to not do it. Gah.)
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So, I need to be more organized. This has ALWAYS been the case, as far back as I can remember.

All these years later, I've finally been able to start putting in to words the problem with all the methods I've tried to try to help. (Other than: They don't help.)

They're all too hard to keep, well, organized, and there's NOTHING that works for me as a true universal capture device.

I have a 1st Gen iPhone, and a Nokia E71.
On each, it takes too long to get the phone out, unlock it, find and launch the note-taking app, and actually enter the note.
If I'm _driving_, when half of the things I've forgotten to do come to me, it's impossible.

If I have a voice recorder of some form, I never remember to transcribe it... I've discovered the notes months or years later, having forgotten about them by the time I finally get to a point where I could transcribe them.

My chosen platform is a mac, my work desktop is windows, my work is done on Linux. I drive my web-browsers hard enough that it can be slow to pull up (website of the day) to get something entered... and I'm not always carrying a machine with me. Go back to the problem with my phones.

If I write it down longhand - which I actually prefer for quick note taking, as trying I've let to find something that smoothly (and on all platforms) lets me put a blob of text here, another one there, and a 3rd alongside the 1st 2, easily.

I did a major diagramming project at my last job in dot (graphviz) because I knew if I got involved in laying out where the arrows and boxes went, I'd NEVER get data in to them.

If I don't get a note taken down quickly, it won't get taken down, and as I read someplace today, "If it's not written down, it doesn't exist."

Of course, once too much of it is written down, there's too much to deal with.

And how the FUCK do you pick out your 'next actions', anyway? (Ref: David Allen, Getting Things Done)

Being organized is not simply 'hard', it's pretty fucking near 'impossible', and this is getting to me.

How do you do it?

(Classic example: I was trying for a while to do a daily wrap-up and pre-org the next day's tasks... but it nearly always happened that I was busy at the wrap-up time, or suddenly it would be time to leave - with a deadline at the other end - and I'd have to not do it. Gah.)
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So, who needs a sysadmin?

Resume will be updated shortly.
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So, who needs a sysadmin?

Resume will be updated shortly.
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Somerville, MA
Annapolis, MD
Falls Church, VA
Towson, MD
Buffalo, NY(?)
Port Dover, ON, Canada
Toronto, ON, Canada
Lake Buena Vista, FL
Orlando, FL
New Lebanon, NY
Philadelphia, PA
Linthicum, MD
Mansfield, MA
Northwood, NH
Troy, NH
Cambridge, MA
Providence, RI
Las Vegas, NV
Pawling, NY

I think that's it. Anyone have any additions?
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Somerville, MA
Annapolis, MD
Falls Church, VA
Towson, MD
Buffalo, NY(?)
Port Dover, ON, Canada
Toronto, ON, Canada
Lake Buena Vista, FL
Orlando, FL
New Lebanon, NY
Philadelphia, PA
Linthicum, MD
Mansfield, MA
Northwood, NH
Troy, NH
Cambridge, MA
Providence, RI
Las Vegas, NV
Pawling, NY

I think that's it. Anyone have any additions?
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Starting out as a very bad one, as part of the long - and can stop ANY TIME NOW - snit of the universe, and moving on to one that - while I'm still very sad for [livejournal.com profile] hammercock and her family - I'm feeling more balanced than I have been for a while. I don't know how long it will last, but it's good for now. (I more than sort of wish I wasn't sleeping alone tonight, but I'm in much better shape to handle it now than I would've been a 2pm today.

Many thanks to [livejournal.com profile] roozle and [livejournal.com profile] sunspiral for hosting, and for many of the attendees for all the many hugs, snuggles, smooches, and even {gasp} conversations today. I needed them all.

Perhaps even thanks to the weather for giving the party a very different dynamic than usual, which served to help settle me in to a fixed place for extended periods, making all of the above much easier to get.

Please, everyone, stay as well as you possibly can, and love one another while you're doing it.
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Starting out as a very bad one, as part of the long - and can stop ANY TIME NOW - snit of the universe, and moving on to one that - while I'm still very sad for [livejournal.com profile] hammercock and her family - I'm feeling more balanced than I have been for a while. I don't know how long it will last, but it's good for now. (I more than sort of wish I wasn't sleeping alone tonight, but I'm in much better shape to handle it now than I would've been a 2pm today.

Many thanks to [livejournal.com profile] roozle and [livejournal.com profile] sunspiral for hosting, and for many of the attendees for all the many hugs, snuggles, smooches, and even {gasp} conversations today. I needed them all.

Perhaps even thanks to the weather for giving the party a very different dynamic than usual, which served to help settle me in to a fixed place for extended periods, making all of the above much easier to get.

Please, everyone, stay as well as you possibly can, and love one another while you're doing it.
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Now playing is the last track of non-podcast, non-audiobook I have that I haven't listened to since adding it to my itunes library.

Now it's time to listen to everything, in order. (Artist, Album by Year).

(http://www.lse.org/~jailbait/cds.html - plus a lot of downloaded music.)
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Now playing is the last track of non-podcast, non-audiobook I have that I haven't listened to since adding it to my itunes library.

Now it's time to listen to everything, in order. (Artist, Album by Year).

(http://www.lse.org/~jailbait/cds.html - plus a lot of downloaded music.)
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Really, I've gotta get better about the feeling that, on any given night that I've got nothing happening and that others are not similarly at loose ends, that I'm being actively excluded from whatever it is that's happening.

Sadly, though, it's not nearly that easy, esp. when some of those things that are going on are things I'd really like to be included in.

I know... Space and invitation lists are not infinite, there are many things I'm NOT excluded from, and so on... but still, it's not easy.

{sigh}
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Really, I've gotta get better about the feeling that, on any given night that I've got nothing happening and that others are not similarly at loose ends, that I'm being actively excluded from whatever it is that's happening.

Sadly, though, it's not nearly that easy, esp. when some of those things that are going on are things I'd really like to be included in.

I know... Space and invitation lists are not infinite, there are many things I'm NOT excluded from, and so on... but still, it's not easy.

{sigh}
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(06:12:11 PM) Friend_I_Haven't_Chatted_With_In_A_While: hi there
(06:12:29 PM) JB: Heya. :)
(06:12:36 PM) JB: How're you?
(06:13:02 PM) FIHCWIAW: life is good but complicated right now
(06:13:16 PM) JB: Oh?
(06:13:38 PM) JB: Usually when people say that to me after we've not talked for a while, it means they're getting in to a poly relationship.
(06:13:39 PM) JB: :)
(06:13:50 PM) FIHCWIAW: sigh.....
(06:13:51 PM) FIHCWIAW: yes

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